...............and the truth shall set you free, or NOT???????  

Wednesday, 22 April 2009

CG: hey baby, are you free for dinner tomorrow night?

DJ: yea sure, where do u wanna go?

CG: nowhere, i was thinking more like my place, i will cook and u just bring the wine...

DJ: (sounding like he was trying to hold back a giggle) u? cook? really? what do u want from me? or what happened cuz the only time i see u in the kitchen is when you want to get the takeout menus.....

See, i am a really good cook, but i HATE cooking. I dont remember the last time i used my stove. DJ is the cook and he loves it so y bother?
I told him i was in the mood to cook and was going to surprise him, and oh what a surprise he got!
I left work early on monday to go food shopping. I decided to go African and make him pounded yam and vegetable soup, (like my mum's) with all those assorted meat and co. That was one of his fave delicacies and i needed to feed this man in readiness of the talk that was going to take place after.

Let me rewind and tell you what brought this on. I decided to take up my neighbour's persistent invite to their church, yea city girl went to church... thats story for another day, and how i wish i didnt go that sunday. The pastor decided to preach on "Restitution". Out of all the topics talked on in church, this was one i really couldnt stand cuz i dont really understand it. Why go back and restitute when you will only end up hurting more people. The pastor gave examples of blessings we were not receiving cuz we have not restituted our sins. It touched me and i decided to do some restitution of my own, hence the call i made to my boyfriend when i got home from church.

He came over for dinner and ate so much he could barely get up. In our months of dating, i'd only cooked once before monday and he loved it then so i had no worries about him not liking my food. He praised my cooking and asked if i could even make him a pot of the vegetable. Since i knew what was still ahead, i agreed instantly......which took him by surprise cuz he was expecting a hell no!....lol.... that was the beginning of surprises.
So baby, do u wanna go watch CSI Miami? (his fave tv show), its starting. We moved to the couch and cuddled up. Then i started.......... i found myself spilling the australia semi-fling to him word for word, even the fleeing away scene. The only pauses i took was to take some wine for more courage. When i was done, he said "thats OK. so can we see how Horatio will solve this case"?

Bloggers, i was stunned. He didnt move away from me, he even pulled me closer and continued watching TV. I asked him if he had any questions or comments and he said NO.
That was monday, we have not talked about it again, and his attitude has not changed. Is this the calm before the storm? or has he truly forgiven me cuz all ive been doing since then is apologise. He's told me to stop apologising.
I wish i didnt come clean but all thats keeping me going are:

1. I did it to solve the tension black and BG have going on. Now the truth is out, he doesnt have to feel like hes betraying his friend

2. Restitution sets free

3. I want a honest relationship and i will want DJ to be honest with me too

Now all i am going to do is wait for the storm cuz i really dont think he's ok with his girlfriend semi-cheating on him..... Thats my week so far bloggers, how has yours been?

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12 comments: to “ ...............and the truth shall set you free, or NOT???????

  • Danny Bagucci
    22 April 2009 at 04:45  

    well... i'd think DJ would appreciate the honesty... and it should be a closed matter.....especially if you did a good job of demonstrating that a line has been drawn over the matter and its in the past, which you kind of sounded like..... thx for stopping by..

  • Jayla.
    22 April 2009 at 06:07  

    Some people appreciate honesty while some don't. I really hope DJ does.....

  • ShonaVixen
    22 April 2009 at 06:47  

    As Jayla says some people appreciate honesty...and maybe DJ does...guess your conscience is still playing trick on you...

  • My World
    22 April 2009 at 07:51  

    I agree with you...
    The truth shall always free you.

  • ~Sirius~
    22 April 2009 at 09:20  

    Don't expect a storm...................I just think he's being mature about it.

    Wow....that's awesome.

    You've got to respect that.

    And I'm with him...........stop apologising.........he knows you are sorry.
    No need to constantly remind him :-)

  • bumight
    22 April 2009 at 10:46  

    you told him? im so proud of you!

    if he says its ok, then it IS ok.

  • QMoney
    22 April 2009 at 10:53  

    Funny enuf,am afraid with u oh but if he doesnt talk about it after some time then bone and be a good gal.aite?

  • Temite
    22 April 2009 at 12:19  

    get ready for the STORM! Get ready becasue ITS coming. But stop apologizing sef. God knows I told once and it WILL never happen again. If I do something, u aint Never going to know....but then again I am toooo errr chicken to actually do something. Well get ready and if it doesnt happen, please HOLD ON to that Man.

  • Tigeress
    22 April 2009 at 13:11  

    i dont know about his one......

    good thing u told him tho cos Black wld have eventually told him if u had not. Lets just wait and see.

    thanks for stopping by. :)

  • K
    23 April 2009 at 00:48  

    Wow you actually told him... well if he says its ok. Its ok. If he decides to come back and be upset then you'll have to accept it.

  • flabby
    23 April 2009 at 13:22  

    wow!
    i would be scared
    but maybe God was just easing you into the restitution thing!
    :)

  • Buttercup
    29 April 2009 at 13:17  

    oh wow..that sounded too good to be true but I'm happy for u! I hope that's where it ends..

    mwah!

 

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